Is this thing on?

It's been too long since I've written. This probably won't count as a post because it's almost over...about to head to lunch and then the beach with my mom and 2 nieces. I have so much that needs to be covered...I will update on Sunday after this holiday weekend is over.

Until next time...Muah!

Nothing Happens By Chance!!

Today was a GREAT day!

I went to church and heard a sermon that really spoke to my spirit. It was focused on trusting in GOD in all situations and He will take you where you need to go.

Now, in my last post I was venting about my really wanting to move and moving fast. I had it in my head that it was my time. I just knew that it was time for me to go and I was going to do so without even knowing if that was God's plan for me. Yeah, I was working on my time, but not God's...which is the only way it can be, His time.

My favorite scripture is Proverbs 3: 5 - 6 ~ "Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thy own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge Him; and He shall direct thy paths."

I love this passage and I really have not been living by it so much. Isn't that a shame. I believe that God was tryna tell me something when the pastor today kept reciting this passage. I have been worrying about doing what I want to do without regard for what God wants me to do. I want Him to order my steps for sure, so I am going to chill out with all this madness and wait on my cue from God. I truly believe He will bring me out and open doors for me, that I can not even dream of being opened in my life.

What's even crazier is that a friend of mine and several others have updated their facebook statuses with this scripture passage. God is talking to me BIG time! And I thank Him for it. Think about all the coincidences that have happened recently in your life...it was not a coincidence! Nothing happens by chance folk! God is tryna tell ya somethn!!

Have a blessed week!

TGIF!

I am sitting in a client's office waiting on him to come in, so I decided to try this blogging thing from my phone. Please don't be alarmed if I start writing in shorthand text...lol! It's because I'm using my phone! Duh!

Today has been a very productive one for me so far. I'm supa glad that it's Friday. Am I the only one who thinks this week went by supa fast? I'm not complaining though. I love the weekend!

So many things are going on in my life...which is why I don't have as much time to write. But I'm determined to do better because writing is indeed my therapy! I love writing toooo much. I'm in fact really considering writing a book. I just haven't decided what I want it to be about. Whatever it is, I'm pretty sure I'll be famous and my book will be a best-seller!

Ok so I went home this past weekend and had a blast! The only problem is, I've been sad since then because I really miss home. I miss my loved ones sooo much. It is not easy being away from your family and bestest friends. I am a witness to that for sure. My cousin and I just had this conversation the other day cause she is missing home as well. I really don't think I can be down here for too long. I'm just waiting on God to give me the ok and poof I'm headed back to home :-) I truly believe that my time is coming, I can feel it! I know that something great for me will come along and I'll know it. Hopefully sooner than later lol!

Wow! I have been sitting in his office for too long! It seems like I've been writing forever! Gosh!

It hurts to miss so much...

I'm a busy body, yep...that's me.

Anyway, I'm hoping this week will go by super fast, along with the week after that. I am going home for Mother's Day, my best friend's bday, and my sorority sister's graduation! I'm so excited, but then I get to thinking...who can celebrate all that in one weekend? I don't know how, but I'm going to make it happen.

I love when I get to celebrate with loved ones, no matter what it is. I love being close to those I love the most...I mean, who doesn't huh? This is when I get home sick. Gosh, I need to be around my peeps for real. I've met some great people down here, but this is not the place for me. I can feel it! I'm ready to MOVE!!! I know that I won't be able to leave until it is time, but dang, why is it taking so long? I already have a list of places I want to go, and have found several houses in the neighborhoods of those cities...I know, kinda anal ain't I??? I don't think so, but others might. I love to plan things like this. It gets me excited! Maybe too excited that I start to think about the possibilities and get sad because it is not happening fast enough. I keep wishing it would, but don't want to rush things that I may not be ready for. I really love my job and am not completely miserable here, but still man! Ugh!

I know that I need to be patient, but it's very difficult for me to want something so bad and not do anything about. Sure, I've been looking for jobs in my target areas, but nothing that stands out and will present me with a better career opportunity. I cannot do that to myself! I was actually called about a job about 2 weeks ago, and had to turn them down because of the location. This is the worst place ever...a very small racist town. I would not even feel safe there...and why jeopardize my positive quality of life on some ignorant racist town that would probably have me going to the back to get my food, in the colored only section. And whoever reads this can say whatever you want, or draw your own opinion, but I have experienced this mess growing up, so it's not as far-fetched as you may think. Racism is still alive...everybody isn't racist, but it definitely exists.

So I can't focus on too much now except on looking at houses in my future new places of residence...I think I'll do that right now as a matter of fact lol!

What a WeEkEnD!!!

Ok I had the best time this weekend at a BBQ my friend J had! There was plenty of food and drinks, which is right down my alley!! (I sound so much like my momma with that)

There were a lot of people there, which I enjoyed because I am a talker and a people person. I talked to everybody! That's just what I do...We even persuaded the men to play Taboo, which is my favorite game! Now, that was super hilarious! I told them at the beginning that they would lose, but they didn't believe me. And guess what happened? They lost EVERY game!!! hahahahahaha! It got to be a little heated because all of us were very competitive. I hate to lose, so you know I wasn't about to give up my Taboo crown to a bunch of clueless men! They had to go down...and they did!

After we whooped their a** in Taboo, we started to have deep conversations, which I dreaded because I knew that we (as in us women) would get upset with the simple mindedness of the men. One of the guys asks for my opinion about his current relationship situation. He was wondering why girls go through the phones of their boyfriends...mainly because his girlfriend was doing the same to him. So, he then goes on to say that he likes pics of naked women, and that is what she found. His rationale was that she shouldn't be going through his phone because he bought her a truck and he pays her cell phone bill. See the simple minds??? I'm looking at him like he's crazy by now, because he's out of his mind if he thinks that is gonna fly with a woman and also because he is obviously a freakin pervert! It's not enough that he has a woman at his beck and call (because she is) he wants more...he wants to look at pics of naked women. WTF?? He then says, "It's the same as if you were to send me a pic and I keep it...I keep my pics." I ask him why he even gets to the point where he lets other women send him those type of pics if he is so into his girlfriend? We were all getting mad at this point, so we calm down on this topic. How stupid and selfish of him, huh?

All I have to say is, sometimes it saddens me how clueless men are about a woman's feelings. Some of them have no idea what it takes to keep a woman, and sadly, they don't care as long as their needs are fulfilled. They don't think that they won't prosper in life when negatively handling matters of the heart. Bless their little hearts...It can only end in tragedy...

Speaking of tragedy, that's what it would have been if I continued to talk to that loser of a man that I mentioned briefly in my last post...TRAGEDY! Thank you Lord that I use the sense you gave me, and will tell it like it is, instead of remaining in a bad situation. Please understand, when I say this guy is a loser, I am not exaggerating, I'm actually sugar coating it lol!

Reunited and it feels Oh so GOOD!

I'm back from outer space it seems...WOW! It has been awhile since I have written. So much has occurred in my life. I have been supa busy with work and all the other things that come with life...I'm guessing you know how it is. I am vowing to do better. My personal goal is to write at least every other day, if not every day. We shall see how that goes :-)

Here are some of the randoms...in simple form (I will explain later)

The guy that my friend's husband wanted me to date in the Navy ended up being almost 17 years older than me, and oh yeah...he is separated from his wife. Which means, yep you guessed it...He's MARRIED!! What a freakin LOSER!!!! I hate when old married men try to get at us younger women. He may have been successful with some other young chicks, but it is a wrap for me. It disgusts me just thinking about that foolishness!

I had an exhausting business trip in Vegas. Probably because the first day I was awake for 24 hours! My mind couldn't even function...but what's most important is I went out every night and had a BLAST! Hey, I can sleep later right? That's the BS I was telling myself as I danced the night away at the hottest Vegas clubs lol!

I was in the mall and saw a little boy who had to be at least 5 or 6, walking around with a pacifier in his mouth! But don't worry, he was able to talk to his mother just fine, even while it was in his mouth. Shame shame shame shame shame!! I remember my friend N.H. said people should have to fill out an application before they have kids. I believe 95% would not get approved and the other 5% would probably get fired within 5 years for letting their little boy walk around with a pacifier in his mouth!

I miss home soooooooo much. I went home for Easter and was very very sad that I had to leave. That's the worst part about going home. I know that I am where I am supposed to be for the moment, so I will just continue to trust God and wait until He gives me the OK to leave my current location...though I do hope it will be sooner than later... :-)

Those were just a few randoms that came to mind. I will get back on track soon. Honestly, I don't know if my mind has returned to normal since Vegas. Now that's a shame too....

Wake up women!

I don't know why women think that if they end a relationship with a man, that life as they know it is over!

Why are we so drama??? Having a man does not define you! Honestly, just like you got that man, God will surely send you someone else. Now, don't get it twisted. I am not one of those chicks who say "I don't need a man" or "All men are dogs!" There is just something that women must do....We must love ourselves! Only then can we love a man and expect him to love us the way we need to be loved. This is sooo important to our success in life as a daugther, mother, wife, friend, co-worker...We must love ourselves.

The reason why we end up in some of the situations we do, is because the unconditional love for ourselves is not there. How can you expect a man to treat you right, when you can't even do the same for yourself. And I have been through it all. I was even in a relationship where I am certain I loved this guy more than I did myself. And yes, there is such thing of loving someone too much, because I don't know if you know this, but God is a jealous God. He does not want you putting someone else before him. That just won't work. And this is what I was doing...which resulted in God taking that person away from me. I had to realize that and since I have, I focus on loving myself. My relationships are not perfect, but I love myself. All of the rest will fall in place.

I look at the Rhianna and Chris Brown situation. I don't care what went down, whether he hit her first or if she punched him first, she is with him after all that hell, because she does not love herself enough. How is it we get this way? What has happened to us that keeps the love for ourselves at bay? Is is because we as women are nurturing and care for others, sort of like the motherly instinct, which results in us leaving ourselves out? I don't know but I am sure that whatever it is, the cycle must end.

I want my future husband to see the way I love God and myself...which will then let him know firsthand the kind of love I am offering and expecting to receive in return from him.

1 Corinthians 13:4-7

4 Love is patient, love is kind and is not jealous; love does not brag and is not arrogant, 5 does not act unbecomingly; it does not seek its own, is not provoked, does not take into account a wrong suffered, 6 does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; 7 bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.