Today was a GREAT day!
I went to church and heard a sermon that really spoke to my spirit. It was focused on trusting in GOD in all situations and He will take you where you need to go.
Now, in my last post I was venting about my really wanting to move and moving fast. I had it in my head that it was my time. I just knew that it was time for me to go and I was going to do so without even knowing if that was God's plan for me. Yeah, I was working on my time, but not God's...which is the only way it can be, His time.
My favorite scripture is Proverbs 3: 5 - 6 ~ "Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thy own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge Him; and He shall direct thy paths."
I love this passage and I really have not been living by it so much. Isn't that a shame. I believe that God was tryna tell me something when the pastor today kept reciting this passage. I have been worrying about doing what I want to do without regard for what God wants me to do. I want Him to order my steps for sure, so I am going to chill out with all this madness and wait on my cue from God. I truly believe He will bring me out and open doors for me, that I can not even dream of being opened in my life.
What's even crazier is that a friend of mine and several others have updated their facebook statuses with this scripture passage. God is talking to me BIG time! And I thank Him for it. Think about all the coincidences that have happened recently in your life...it was not a coincidence! Nothing happens by chance folk! God is tryna tell ya somethn!!
Have a blessed week!
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Sunday, May 17, 2009
Monday, April 27, 2009
It hurts to miss so much...
I'm a busy body, yep...that's me.
Anyway, I'm hoping this week will go by super fast, along with the week after that. I am going home for Mother's Day, my best friend's bday, and my sorority sister's graduation! I'm so excited, but then I get to thinking...who can celebrate all that in one weekend? I don't know how, but I'm going to make it happen.
I love when I get to celebrate with loved ones, no matter what it is. I love being close to those I love the most...I mean, who doesn't huh? This is when I get home sick. Gosh, I need to be around my peeps for real. I've met some great people down here, but this is not the place for me. I can feel it! I'm ready to MOVE!!! I know that I won't be able to leave until it is time, but dang, why is it taking so long? I already have a list of places I want to go, and have found several houses in the neighborhoods of those cities...I know, kinda anal ain't I??? I don't think so, but others might. I love to plan things like this. It gets me excited! Maybe too excited that I start to think about the possibilities and get sad because it is not happening fast enough. I keep wishing it would, but don't want to rush things that I may not be ready for. I really love my job and am not completely miserable here, but still man! Ugh!
I know that I need to be patient, but it's very difficult for me to want something so bad and not do anything about. Sure, I've been looking for jobs in my target areas, but nothing that stands out and will present me with a better career opportunity. I cannot do that to myself! I was actually called about a job about 2 weeks ago, and had to turn them down because of the location. This is the worst place ever...a very small racist town. I would not even feel safe there...and why jeopardize my positive quality of life on some ignorant racist town that would probably have me going to the back to get my food, in the colored only section. And whoever reads this can say whatever you want, or draw your own opinion, but I have experienced this mess growing up, so it's not as far-fetched as you may think. Racism is still alive...everybody isn't racist, but it definitely exists.
So I can't focus on too much now except on looking at houses in my future new places of residence...I think I'll do that right now as a matter of fact lol!
Anyway, I'm hoping this week will go by super fast, along with the week after that. I am going home for Mother's Day, my best friend's bday, and my sorority sister's graduation! I'm so excited, but then I get to thinking...who can celebrate all that in one weekend? I don't know how, but I'm going to make it happen.
I love when I get to celebrate with loved ones, no matter what it is. I love being close to those I love the most...I mean, who doesn't huh? This is when I get home sick. Gosh, I need to be around my peeps for real. I've met some great people down here, but this is not the place for me. I can feel it! I'm ready to MOVE!!! I know that I won't be able to leave until it is time, but dang, why is it taking so long? I already have a list of places I want to go, and have found several houses in the neighborhoods of those cities...I know, kinda anal ain't I??? I don't think so, but others might. I love to plan things like this. It gets me excited! Maybe too excited that I start to think about the possibilities and get sad because it is not happening fast enough. I keep wishing it would, but don't want to rush things that I may not be ready for. I really love my job and am not completely miserable here, but still man! Ugh!
I know that I need to be patient, but it's very difficult for me to want something so bad and not do anything about. Sure, I've been looking for jobs in my target areas, but nothing that stands out and will present me with a better career opportunity. I cannot do that to myself! I was actually called about a job about 2 weeks ago, and had to turn them down because of the location. This is the worst place ever...a very small racist town. I would not even feel safe there...and why jeopardize my positive quality of life on some ignorant racist town that would probably have me going to the back to get my food, in the colored only section. And whoever reads this can say whatever you want, or draw your own opinion, but I have experienced this mess growing up, so it's not as far-fetched as you may think. Racism is still alive...everybody isn't racist, but it definitely exists.
So I can't focus on too much now except on looking at houses in my future new places of residence...I think I'll do that right now as a matter of fact lol!
Friday, April 17, 2009
Reunited and it feels Oh so GOOD!
I'm back from outer space it seems...WOW! It has been awhile since I have written. So much has occurred in my life. I have been supa busy with work and all the other things that come with life...I'm guessing you know how it is. I am vowing to do better. My personal goal is to write at least every other day, if not every day. We shall see how that goes :-)
Here are some of the randoms...in simple form (I will explain later)
The guy that my friend's husband wanted me to date in the Navy ended up being almost 17 years older than me, and oh yeah...he is separated from his wife. Which means, yep you guessed it...He's MARRIED!! What a freakin LOSER!!!! I hate when old married men try to get at us younger women. He may have been successful with some other young chicks, but it is a wrap for me. It disgusts me just thinking about that foolishness!
I had an exhausting business trip in Vegas. Probably because the first day I was awake for 24 hours! My mind couldn't even function...but what's most important is I went out every night and had a BLAST! Hey, I can sleep later right? That's the BS I was telling myself as I danced the night away at the hottest Vegas clubs lol!
I was in the mall and saw a little boy who had to be at least 5 or 6, walking around with a pacifier in his mouth! But don't worry, he was able to talk to his mother just fine, even while it was in his mouth. Shame shame shame shame shame!! I remember my friend N.H. said people should have to fill out an application before they have kids. I believe 95% would not get approved and the other 5% would probably get fired within 5 years for letting their little boy walk around with a pacifier in his mouth!
I miss home soooooooo much. I went home for Easter and was very very sad that I had to leave. That's the worst part about going home. I know that I am where I am supposed to be for the moment, so I will just continue to trust God and wait until He gives me the OK to leave my current location...though I do hope it will be sooner than later... :-)
Those were just a few randoms that came to mind. I will get back on track soon. Honestly, I don't know if my mind has returned to normal since Vegas. Now that's a shame too....
Here are some of the randoms...in simple form (I will explain later)
The guy that my friend's husband wanted me to date in the Navy ended up being almost 17 years older than me, and oh yeah...he is separated from his wife. Which means, yep you guessed it...He's MARRIED!! What a freakin LOSER!!!! I hate when old married men try to get at us younger women. He may have been successful with some other young chicks, but it is a wrap for me. It disgusts me just thinking about that foolishness!
I had an exhausting business trip in Vegas. Probably because the first day I was awake for 24 hours! My mind couldn't even function...but what's most important is I went out every night and had a BLAST! Hey, I can sleep later right? That's the BS I was telling myself as I danced the night away at the hottest Vegas clubs lol!
I was in the mall and saw a little boy who had to be at least 5 or 6, walking around with a pacifier in his mouth! But don't worry, he was able to talk to his mother just fine, even while it was in his mouth. Shame shame shame shame shame!! I remember my friend N.H. said people should have to fill out an application before they have kids. I believe 95% would not get approved and the other 5% would probably get fired within 5 years for letting their little boy walk around with a pacifier in his mouth!
I miss home soooooooo much. I went home for Easter and was very very sad that I had to leave. That's the worst part about going home. I know that I am where I am supposed to be for the moment, so I will just continue to trust God and wait until He gives me the OK to leave my current location...though I do hope it will be sooner than later... :-)
Those were just a few randoms that came to mind. I will get back on track soon. Honestly, I don't know if my mind has returned to normal since Vegas. Now that's a shame too....
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Wake up women!
I don't know why women think that if they end a relationship with a man, that life as they know it is over!
Why are we so drama??? Having a man does not define you! Honestly, just like you got that man, God will surely send you someone else. Now, don't get it twisted. I am not one of those chicks who say "I don't need a man" or "All men are dogs!" There is just something that women must do....We must love ourselves! Only then can we love a man and expect him to love us the way we need to be loved. This is sooo important to our success in life as a daugther, mother, wife, friend, co-worker...We must love ourselves.
The reason why we end up in some of the situations we do, is because the unconditional love for ourselves is not there. How can you expect a man to treat you right, when you can't even do the same for yourself. And I have been through it all. I was even in a relationship where I am certain I loved this guy more than I did myself. And yes, there is such thing of loving someone too much, because I don't know if you know this, but God is a jealous God. He does not want you putting someone else before him. That just won't work. And this is what I was doing...which resulted in God taking that person away from me. I had to realize that and since I have, I focus on loving myself. My relationships are not perfect, but I love myself. All of the rest will fall in place.
I look at the Rhianna and Chris Brown situation. I don't care what went down, whether he hit her first or if she punched him first, she is with him after all that hell, because she does not love herself enough. How is it we get this way? What has happened to us that keeps the love for ourselves at bay? Is is because we as women are nurturing and care for others, sort of like the motherly instinct, which results in us leaving ourselves out? I don't know but I am sure that whatever it is, the cycle must end.
I want my future husband to see the way I love God and myself...which will then let him know firsthand the kind of love I am offering and expecting to receive in return from him.
1 Corinthians 13:4-7
4 Love is patient, love is kind and is not jealous; love does not brag and is not arrogant, 5 does not act unbecomingly; it does not seek its own, is not provoked, does not take into account a wrong suffered, 6 does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; 7 bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
Why are we so drama??? Having a man does not define you! Honestly, just like you got that man, God will surely send you someone else. Now, don't get it twisted. I am not one of those chicks who say "I don't need a man" or "All men are dogs!" There is just something that women must do....We must love ourselves! Only then can we love a man and expect him to love us the way we need to be loved. This is sooo important to our success in life as a daugther, mother, wife, friend, co-worker...We must love ourselves.
The reason why we end up in some of the situations we do, is because the unconditional love for ourselves is not there. How can you expect a man to treat you right, when you can't even do the same for yourself. And I have been through it all. I was even in a relationship where I am certain I loved this guy more than I did myself. And yes, there is such thing of loving someone too much, because I don't know if you know this, but God is a jealous God. He does not want you putting someone else before him. That just won't work. And this is what I was doing...which resulted in God taking that person away from me. I had to realize that and since I have, I focus on loving myself. My relationships are not perfect, but I love myself. All of the rest will fall in place.
I look at the Rhianna and Chris Brown situation. I don't care what went down, whether he hit her first or if she punched him first, she is with him after all that hell, because she does not love herself enough. How is it we get this way? What has happened to us that keeps the love for ourselves at bay? Is is because we as women are nurturing and care for others, sort of like the motherly instinct, which results in us leaving ourselves out? I don't know but I am sure that whatever it is, the cycle must end.
I want my future husband to see the way I love God and myself...which will then let him know firsthand the kind of love I am offering and expecting to receive in return from him.
1 Corinthians 13:4-7
4 Love is patient, love is kind and is not jealous; love does not brag and is not arrogant, 5 does not act unbecomingly; it does not seek its own, is not provoked, does not take into account a wrong suffered, 6 does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; 7 bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
Monday, February 23, 2009
What Part Will You Play?
I've recently gotten to the point where I am truly able to let things and people go. It's not easy by any means, but sometimes God will let you know that it is time to move on. I am glad too. The difficult process of giving up dead weight in your life, only makes the journey easier without the extra baggage. I remember reading an email from a friend stating that people will be put in your life for a reason, a season, and a lifetime.
People enter your life for a reason because there is a lesson to be learned or a trial to be overcome. That particular person may help with something you are having difficulty with and keep you encouraged through it all. Then without warning or wrongdoing on your part, that person may leave you. I think about people that I know that have been in my life for a reason but are not here anymore. It hurts. Especially when you have to let someone go that has had such an impact on your life. I learned from my experiences with those people, and it has made me stronger. It is important to realize though, that whatever happened, the lesson has been learned and it was time for them to be released from your life. It is time to move on!
People entering your life for just a season usually bring a tremendous amount of joy. They are there to share great memories with you. There may be much laughter and experiencing things you have never done before. But like the seasons change, so will your relationship with that person. And we all know that seasons end, as does this relationship. I have someone that was placed in my life for a season. He brought me so much joy and peace. Then one day, it dawned on me that it was time for me to let him go. Letting go of someone who has been in your life for a season is sooooo hard. You get accustomed to that person, and cannot imagine life without them. But God always has a plan and he will let us know that life does indeed go on.
Last but not least, lifetime relationships present lifelong lessons. This may be a case where someone has hurt you badly. You must learn from that experience and forgive that person. When you don't forgive, a person will take power over you. Let it go. Pick up and move on and know better when you are in other relationships throughout life. That is a part of growing. Learning not only from your mistakes, but other peoples' as well. I have learned a great deal from previous relationships and I strive to make every one better than the last.
This is my spill for this Monday. I was thinking about all the people in my life that I have been blessed to know...even my enemies. I am thankful for my experiences. They make me the fabulous woman that I am... :-)
People enter your life for a reason because there is a lesson to be learned or a trial to be overcome. That particular person may help with something you are having difficulty with and keep you encouraged through it all. Then without warning or wrongdoing on your part, that person may leave you. I think about people that I know that have been in my life for a reason but are not here anymore. It hurts. Especially when you have to let someone go that has had such an impact on your life. I learned from my experiences with those people, and it has made me stronger. It is important to realize though, that whatever happened, the lesson has been learned and it was time for them to be released from your life. It is time to move on!
People entering your life for just a season usually bring a tremendous amount of joy. They are there to share great memories with you. There may be much laughter and experiencing things you have never done before. But like the seasons change, so will your relationship with that person. And we all know that seasons end, as does this relationship. I have someone that was placed in my life for a season. He brought me so much joy and peace. Then one day, it dawned on me that it was time for me to let him go. Letting go of someone who has been in your life for a season is sooooo hard. You get accustomed to that person, and cannot imagine life without them. But God always has a plan and he will let us know that life does indeed go on.
Last but not least, lifetime relationships present lifelong lessons. This may be a case where someone has hurt you badly. You must learn from that experience and forgive that person. When you don't forgive, a person will take power over you. Let it go. Pick up and move on and know better when you are in other relationships throughout life. That is a part of growing. Learning not only from your mistakes, but other peoples' as well. I have learned a great deal from previous relationships and I strive to make every one better than the last.
This is my spill for this Monday. I was thinking about all the people in my life that I have been blessed to know...even my enemies. I am thankful for my experiences. They make me the fabulous woman that I am... :-)
Sunday, February 22, 2009
25 Random Things
There's this note on facebook that has been going around called 25 Random things...I got sucked into this, but it's actually a great way for others to learn things about you they otherwise wouldn't know. Here goes...
1. I love the Lord so much! He has been better to me than I have been to myself.
2. My mother and brother are like my babies…I love them, and take care of them.
3. I have a great job that I am thankful for.
4. Family is extremely important to me.
5. My favorite movie is The Breakfast Club and usually, no one knows what it is.
6. I hate when women want a man for all the things he can do for her (buying jewelry, putting rims on the car lol) although she is not bringing anything to the table herself. Take care of yourselves first you bums!
7. I do not believe that all men are dogs.
8. Men think that women don’t have things figured out when most times we actually do…that’s amusing to me.
9. I love google. When I don’t know something, I google it.
10. I have a small, close group of friends that I let into my life…don’t try to figure anything out about me. I will not display my life on facebook..this note is it :-)
11. I have found that I am stronger than I thought, and so is my faith.
12. I have road rage…I drive all day and get irritated when people stop me from carrying on with my life.
13. Nothing happens by chance.
14. Name it and claim it…that’s my life motto.
15. Traveling is a stress reliever for me. I do it cause I can and am able…no husband, no kids. Just me and whomever wants to go.
16. Ne-yo's song miss independent is about me lol!
17. I’m confident in who I am and appreciate those who appreciate my fabulosity :-)
18. I always look for ways to better myself spiritually, mentally, physically.
19. As I get older, I have noticed that I have a decreased tolerance for ignorance/stupidity.
20. I love the single ladies dance by Beyonce and pretty much got it down pat…although I can’t work it like the guys on youtube.
21. President Barack Obama and First Lady Michelle are fabulous! So are Sasha and Malia!
22. I went to the inauguration and have never experienced something so cool…I made history.
23. I find it strange that some people can tell their problems to facebook but can’t tell God.
24. I love…love
25. I don’t like when men approach me the wrong way…all the extra lines are not necessary. Just saying hey is ok…gosh!
Looking over this list...there are tons of things that I could have added, but these are just randoms that were on my mind at the time. Maybe I will start to like this list thing...I have some ideas running through my head right now :-)
1. I love the Lord so much! He has been better to me than I have been to myself.
2. My mother and brother are like my babies…I love them, and take care of them.
3. I have a great job that I am thankful for.
4. Family is extremely important to me.
5. My favorite movie is The Breakfast Club and usually, no one knows what it is.
6. I hate when women want a man for all the things he can do for her (buying jewelry, putting rims on the car lol) although she is not bringing anything to the table herself. Take care of yourselves first you bums!
7. I do not believe that all men are dogs.
8. Men think that women don’t have things figured out when most times we actually do…that’s amusing to me.
9. I love google. When I don’t know something, I google it.
10. I have a small, close group of friends that I let into my life…don’t try to figure anything out about me. I will not display my life on facebook..this note is it :-)
11. I have found that I am stronger than I thought, and so is my faith.
12. I have road rage…I drive all day and get irritated when people stop me from carrying on with my life.
13. Nothing happens by chance.
14. Name it and claim it…that’s my life motto.
15. Traveling is a stress reliever for me. I do it cause I can and am able…no husband, no kids. Just me and whomever wants to go.
16. Ne-yo's song miss independent is about me lol!
17. I’m confident in who I am and appreciate those who appreciate my fabulosity :-)
18. I always look for ways to better myself spiritually, mentally, physically.
19. As I get older, I have noticed that I have a decreased tolerance for ignorance/stupidity.
20. I love the single ladies dance by Beyonce and pretty much got it down pat…although I can’t work it like the guys on youtube.
21. President Barack Obama and First Lady Michelle are fabulous! So are Sasha and Malia!
22. I went to the inauguration and have never experienced something so cool…I made history.
23. I find it strange that some people can tell their problems to facebook but can’t tell God.
24. I love…love
25. I don’t like when men approach me the wrong way…all the extra lines are not necessary. Just saying hey is ok…gosh!
Looking over this list...there are tons of things that I could have added, but these are just randoms that were on my mind at the time. Maybe I will start to like this list thing...I have some ideas running through my head right now :-)
Sunday, February 15, 2009
Act One: The Start of Expression
Today is my day of relaxation...Sunday. Usually I am getting prepared for another work week. Fortunately, I have one more day to prepare myself since we are off for President's Day. That is just fabulous. Being off on a weekday is so refreshing, as long as it's not a sick day :-(
Anywhoo, life is good. I have my health, family, friends, a job that I love and most importantly...this new blog where I can express my deepest emotions. I want this blog to speak for me. I want these Random Acts of Life to tell who I am, where I am, and where I wanna be. I'm a big believer in letting it all out. It is a therapy. Writing is my therapy.
I am very opinionated. I have views on everything. These opinions can come from my life experiences, morals/values, things I have read, people I have talked to etc. I know that I don't know everything, but I take pride in knowing a lot and learning things that I don't know. I feel that something I say, even if it is of little importance, may have an impact on someone else's life. If I can do that, then I'm good :-)
Anywhoo, life is good. I have my health, family, friends, a job that I love and most importantly...this new blog where I can express my deepest emotions. I want this blog to speak for me. I want these Random Acts of Life to tell who I am, where I am, and where I wanna be. I'm a big believer in letting it all out. It is a therapy. Writing is my therapy.
I am very opinionated. I have views on everything. These opinions can come from my life experiences, morals/values, things I have read, people I have talked to etc. I know that I don't know everything, but I take pride in knowing a lot and learning things that I don't know. I feel that something I say, even if it is of little importance, may have an impact on someone else's life. If I can do that, then I'm good :-)
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