It hurts to miss so much...

I'm a busy body, yep...that's me.

Anyway, I'm hoping this week will go by super fast, along with the week after that. I am going home for Mother's Day, my best friend's bday, and my sorority sister's graduation! I'm so excited, but then I get to thinking...who can celebrate all that in one weekend? I don't know how, but I'm going to make it happen.

I love when I get to celebrate with loved ones, no matter what it is. I love being close to those I love the most...I mean, who doesn't huh? This is when I get home sick. Gosh, I need to be around my peeps for real. I've met some great people down here, but this is not the place for me. I can feel it! I'm ready to MOVE!!! I know that I won't be able to leave until it is time, but dang, why is it taking so long? I already have a list of places I want to go, and have found several houses in the neighborhoods of those cities...I know, kinda anal ain't I??? I don't think so, but others might. I love to plan things like this. It gets me excited! Maybe too excited that I start to think about the possibilities and get sad because it is not happening fast enough. I keep wishing it would, but don't want to rush things that I may not be ready for. I really love my job and am not completely miserable here, but still man! Ugh!

I know that I need to be patient, but it's very difficult for me to want something so bad and not do anything about. Sure, I've been looking for jobs in my target areas, but nothing that stands out and will present me with a better career opportunity. I cannot do that to myself! I was actually called about a job about 2 weeks ago, and had to turn them down because of the location. This is the worst place ever...a very small racist town. I would not even feel safe there...and why jeopardize my positive quality of life on some ignorant racist town that would probably have me going to the back to get my food, in the colored only section. And whoever reads this can say whatever you want, or draw your own opinion, but I have experienced this mess growing up, so it's not as far-fetched as you may think. Racism is still alive...everybody isn't racist, but it definitely exists.

So I can't focus on too much now except on looking at houses in my future new places of residence...I think I'll do that right now as a matter of fact lol!

Reunited and it feels Oh so GOOD!

I'm back from outer space it seems...WOW! It has been awhile since I have written. So much has occurred in my life. I have been supa busy with work and all the other things that come with life...I'm guessing you know how it is. I am vowing to do better. My personal goal is to write at least every other day, if not every day. We shall see how that goes :-)

Here are some of the randoms...in simple form (I will explain later)

The guy that my friend's husband wanted me to date in the Navy ended up being almost 17 years older than me, and oh yeah...he is separated from his wife. Which means, yep you guessed it...He's MARRIED!! What a freakin LOSER!!!! I hate when old married men try to get at us younger women. He may have been successful with some other young chicks, but it is a wrap for me. It disgusts me just thinking about that foolishness!

I had an exhausting business trip in Vegas. Probably because the first day I was awake for 24 hours! My mind couldn't even function...but what's most important is I went out every night and had a BLAST! Hey, I can sleep later right? That's the BS I was telling myself as I danced the night away at the hottest Vegas clubs lol!

I was in the mall and saw a little boy who had to be at least 5 or 6, walking around with a pacifier in his mouth! But don't worry, he was able to talk to his mother just fine, even while it was in his mouth. Shame shame shame shame shame!! I remember my friend N.H. said people should have to fill out an application before they have kids. I believe 95% would not get approved and the other 5% would probably get fired within 5 years for letting their little boy walk around with a pacifier in his mouth!

I miss home soooooooo much. I went home for Easter and was very very sad that I had to leave. That's the worst part about going home. I know that I am where I am supposed to be for the moment, so I will just continue to trust God and wait until He gives me the OK to leave my current location...though I do hope it will be sooner than later... :-)

Those were just a few randoms that came to mind. I will get back on track soon. Honestly, I don't know if my mind has returned to normal since Vegas. Now that's a shame too....

So I can be FAMOUS???

I'm watching Sunday Best on BET right now...up in here having church again!!! There are really some folk on here who have been blessed with the gift of singing. I love music and those who know how to deliver a great performance are uplifting.

Ok so this lady just tried to plead her case for going through to be on the show and she says, "I've been singing since I was 2!!"

I'm looking like...so what? Why do people think that if they started singing right out the womb that they are entitled to be a great singer? What about those that woke up one morning at the age of 20 that wanted to sing. This doesn't mean they are any less of a singer...just because they weren't videotaped as a child singing the lead in the choir, does not mean that God did not bless them with a voice that can have an impact on others. Just a thought...

If all that matters then I need to go ahead and start videotaping myself singing...you know since I gotta make it big and all. I've been humming since I was a baby, my mother just didn't think to video it...Gosh! I could be famous now!

Happy Sunday :-)

If you got it...flaunt it!

I've been so busy today!

All I want to say is I feel really good right now! I have this peace that has taken over me. I know that everything is going to work out in my life in all areas. This may not make any sense, but this is how I feel.

I have "peace that surpasses all understanding"...

So I ask you simply...

Got peace?